“All things are possible if you believe.” Mark 9:23
Happy Tuesday! It’s time to try something new.
Ever feel like you are so far behind that you will never catch up? This is me at work most of the time. I’m feeling that way at work this week because I was out some last week when I was sick. Now I’m back fighting a flare. Rheumatoid Arthritis is a balancing act for me. I am almost crippled and unable to walk, but if I take my biologics I will be better. On the other hand, when I take my biologics, my white blood cell count is lowered to the point that I catch any cold, virus, etc. that comes anywhere near me. Ugh. I thought I was cured in the fall, and maybe I was. However, it is important to have constant belief and faith or the illness will come back, which is what happened to me.
I try not to talk about it and most of the time I am successful at hiding the illness. I find it super embarrassing when I can’t walk up four steps into the office and need a cane, or when I bump one of the knuckles on my hands and cry out in pain. I don’t want anyone to know that I can’t run in a 5K. I joined the gym this month only to be able to walk on the treadmill a total of three times. After attempting this I found that I was unable to walk around my work area. This morning I walked for 15 minutes and found it difficult to get around most of the day.
Well, enough of the negative. I have so much to be thankful for that I don’t concentrate on the negative. I laugh throughout my day and try to go unnoticed. I so want to be like everyone else. I don’t for a minute think that it was God’s plan for me to be sick with this illness, and I try not to dwell on it. However, I thought that if I shared my situation, it would help others experiencing chronic pain.
The thing about it is, everybody has something they need to overcome. Everybody. This is just want I am battling, but I know that when I put my trust in God, he will help me through the day. If God is all I have, I have all I need.
So, today join me and stop hiding your head in your hands, and put your trust in God. God bless you.