Forgiveness Thursday – Keep It Well with Your Soul

Let all that you do be done in love.   1 Corinthians 16:14

Happy Thursday!  Every Thursday I send a message about forgiveness.  This week I put myself to the test.

Monday morning my maternal grandfather died.  When I was a child he sexually abused me.  I kept the family secrets until I was in my mid- to late twenties and my younger sister, a tween at the time, tried to kill herself due to the abuse she experienced.  I came out on her behalf as a corroborating witness and lost everything except my husband and children.  Make no mistake, I gained nothing.

Years went by and it was only about a year ago that I finally realized that I didn’t have to be afraid anymore.  I had completely forgiven both my grandmother, who I loved so much (passed away about 7 years ago) and who covered up the abuse, and my grandfather, the abuser.  Yet, there was a part of me who hoped until the very last minute, that he would tell the family, so there could be healing and reuniting.  He didn’t.

This week I felt I needed some closure, but I was banned by the family from the funeral home and the funeral.  Sitting in my office yesterday, I felt unsettled.  Then, out of the nowhere my friend brought in a group of teens from a local youth ministry and they prayed for me.  How sweet was that!

Almost instantly my prayer was answered.  I stood before God and talked to my grandfather.  It was then that I could see him as a victim.  Many abusers have also been abused.  Tears ran down my cheeks as I told him I was sorry for whatever happened to cause him to have that problem.  I went on to tell him that I hated he couldn’t make it right with the family, but it was okay. Then, I prayed for God to accept him and my grandmother in heaven, if he hadn’t already.  Finally, I said my farewells for now and promised to see them in heaven one day where I know everything will be so much better. I will be able to hug them.  Immediately, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted from my chest.  I felt so much relief that I am happy again.  I can truly say . . . it is well with my soul.

I don’t share this story to brag or boast, because I’ve always been ashamed of what happened.  Also, know that it took many, many years for me to get to the place where I am now.  However, I know that I’m not alone.  Many of you have similar situations.  Rest assured there are miracles every day,  I witnessed some yesterday.  I know God can make everything okay, but even if he doesn’t do what you think you need, keep things well with your soul.  God bless you!

 

One Lovely Blog Award

 

I am excited and happy to announce that Crystal Stewart of Crystal’s Site  nominated me for the One Lovely Blog Award.  Crystal is a fantastic photographer, who loves animals and country living.  If you haven’t visited her blog, I encourage you to visit soon.  There is such a variety of information that you are bound to find plenty of interests.  I love it!  Thank you again for nominating me Crystal.

I have so many people I would like to nominate but here are my nominations and remember you are under no obligation to accept by me nominating you. This is just a token of my appreciation of your hard work.

I would like to nominate the following blogs:

Buckets on a Barefoot Beach

Out Crawls Ann

The Journey of My Left Foot

Captive Dreams Window

Twilightpaint

Unexpected in Common Hours

Voyages of Mine

Decluttering My Life

Stellascreativities

Megala’s Kitchen

Healing through Words

Living for Experiences

Tashnee.v.mavee

Angela Murdock

Circadianreflections

The Rules:
• Thank the person that nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
• List the rules.
• Display the award on your post of the award.
• List seven facts about yourself.
• Nominate 15 bloggers for this award and comment on one of their posts to let them know you have nominated them.

7 Facts About Myself
• I was born on the 4th of July.
• I have a Great Dane and a Shih Tzu.  This week a Maine Coon kitten is coming to live with me.
• I love to quilt.
• I have traveled in 19 states.
• I find reading and learning fun.
• I studied Spanish, Chinese and Egyptian Hieroglyphics in College.
• My friend Jeanne says I have a big personality and a bigger heart.